狄更斯的小说特点 狄更斯双语小说:《董贝父子》第43章Part7

狄更斯双语小说:《董贝父子》第43章Part7  

'Are you sure of that? Can it never be? If I speak now of what is in my thoughts
in spite of what we have agreed
' said Florence
'you will not blame me
will you?'
'It is useless
' she replied
'useless. I have told you
dear
that I have had bad dreams. Nothing can change them
or prevent them ing back.'
'I do not understand
' said Florence
gazing on her agitated face which seemed to darken as she looked.
'I have dreamed
' said Edith in a low voice
'of a pride that is all powerless for good
all powerful for evil; of a pride that has been galled and goaded
through many shameful years
and has never recoiled except upon itself; a pride that has debased its owner with the consciousness of deep humiliation
and never helped its owner boldly to resent it or avoid it
or to say
"This shall not be!" a pride that
rightly guided
might have led perhaps to better things
but which
misdirected and perverted
like all else belonging to the same possessor
has been self-contempt
mere hardihood and ruin.'
She neither looked nor spoke to Florence now
but went on as if she were alone.
'I have dreamed
' she said
'of such indifference and callousness
arising from this self-contempt; this wretched
inefficient
miserable pride; that it has gone on with listless steps even to the altar
yielding to the old
familiar
beckoning finger
- oh mother
oh mother! - while it spurned it; and willing to be hateful to itself for once and for all
rather than to be stung daily in some new form. Mean
poor thing!'
And now with gathering and darkening emotion
she looked as she had looked when Florence entered.