美食祈祷与恋爱意大利文化 《美食祈祷和恋爱》Chapter 56 (121): 不能乱动

《美食祈祷和恋爱》Chapter 56 (121): 不能乱动  

It's physically grueling too. You are forbidden to shift your body at all once you have been seated
no matter how severe your disfort. You just sit there and tell yourself
"There's no reason I need to move at all during the next o hours." If you are feeling disfort then you are supposed to meditate upon that disfort
watching the effect that physical pain has on you. In our real lives
we are constantly hopping around to adjust ourselves around disfort — physical
emotional and psychological—in order to evade the reality of grief and nuisance. Vipassana meditation teaches that grief and nuisance are inevitable in this life
but if you can plant yourself in stillness long enough
you will
in time
experience the truth that everything (both unfortable and lovely) does eventually pass.
"The world is afflicted with death and decay
therefore the wise do not grieve
knowing the terms of the world
" says an old Buddhist teaching. In other words: Get used to it. I don't think Vipassana is necessarily the path for me. It's far too austere for my notions of devotional practice
which generally revolve around passion and love and butterflies and bliss and a friendly God (what my friend Darcey calls "Slumber Party Theology"). There isn't even any talk about "God" in Vipassana
since the notion of God is considered by some Buddhists to be the final object of dependency
the ultimate fuzzy security blanket
the last thing to be abandoned on the path to pure detachment. Now
I have my own personal issues with the very word detachment
having met spiritual seekers who already seem to live in a state of plete emotional disconnect from other human beings and who
when they talk about the sacred pursuit of detachment
make me want to shake them and holler
"Buddy
that is the last thing you need to practice!"
Still
I can see where cultivating a measure of intelligent detachment in your life can be a valuable instrument of peace. And after reading about Vipassana meditation in the library one afternoon
I got to thinking about how much time I spend in my life crashing around like a great gasping fish
either squirming away from some unfortable distress or flopping hun-grily toward ever more pleasure. And I wondered whether it might serve me (and those who are burdened with the task of loving me) if I could learn to stay still and endure a bit more without always getting dragged along on the potholed road of circumstance.
尽管如此，我看得出在生活中培养解脱之道，或许有益于求得平静。某天下午，在图书室读完内观禅修法后，我思索自己一生花费多少时间像一条喘气的大鱼横冲直撞，不是扭身逃开不舒服的痛苦，就是如饥似渴地扑向更多的愉悦。若能学会待在原地处之泰然，不要总是在坑坑洼洼的人生道路上被拖着走，或许对我（以及因为爱我而受拖累的那些人）会很有用呢。
All these questions came back to me this evening
when I found a quiet bench in one of the Ashram gardens and decided to sit in meditation for an hour—Vipassana-style. No move-ment
no agitation
not even mantra—just pure regarding. Let's see what es up. Unfortu-nately
I had fotten about what "es up" at dusk in India: mosquitoes. As I soon as I sat down on that bench in the lovely gloaming
I could hear the mosquitoes ing at me
brush-ing against my face and landing—in a group assault—on my head
ankles
arms. And then their fierce little burns. I didn't like this. I thought
"This is a bad time of day to practice Vipas-sana meditation."