我的初恋 My Very First Love 我的初恋

My Very First Love 我的初恋  

Yes this may be surprising
I was only 13 years old that time. But
don't know how or why it happened to me so early. I fell deeply in love with a guy
who I used to think was annoying 2 months ago.
It was 1997
in Chittagong
Bang- ladesh
me and my family have just moved to a new apartment in a new area. So
after few weeks have passed
I started going back to school
since it was during Ramadan we moved. Well
I made some new friends in the neighborhood. This girl who was always hanging out with
her name was Ivy.
One day when I was going to school
I bumped into Ivy on the way out of my building
and she was standing next to this guy
he lived in the building right beside mine. He said “Hi” to me
and we just asked each other “how are you” and blah blah
then I had to leave. But I noticed that guy was looking at me. It was a different kind of look
look with love in his eyes. Few days later
I noticed whenever I go to school and e back from school
he is standing in his balcony
and smiling at me. If he is not around
and one of his friends see me
they start to yell out his name. Oh yeah
by the way
his name was Mamun.
So
I was very annoyed by those things. And I even told Ivy to tell Mamun to stop these foolishness. After my exams were over
I had a break. So I used to go to the roof and read books to spend my time. Mamun used to e to their roof also and both roofs where so close to each other that you can just jump from one to another.
Once I was reading a book
and I noticed Mamun e to their roof and he looked at me
and smiled. OH MY GOD! I don't know what happened to me. That sweet smile just took me away. I smiled back at him
for the first time. I could never fet that moment. We used to smile at each other whenever we saw each other
but never had a chat. I was sure that he liked me a lot
because
anytime he would see me on the roof from his balcony
he came up to the roof right away. I fell in love with him very deeply. I was surprised that I did. The feelings I had was so beautiful and made me so happy.
Mamun did e to my roof one day to talk to me but I wanted him to go away. I didn't want any one to see us talking. As you know
in Bangladesh rumors go around so fast. When we talked
I saw deep love in his eyes. I always smiled at him; I didn't talk to him much. Still
life was going on so wonderfully. Mamun never told me he loved me. I thought that was because
I was 5/6 years younger than him.
Very soon
I found out that me and my family are leaving Bang- ladesh and ing to Canada. I was devas- tated. I cried all night but there was nothing to do. When Mamun found out
he asked me on the roof
if it was true. When I said yes
he asked how long will I be in Canada. The answer was maybe forever
we were going to settle in Canada. He looked depressed
all he said was “Oh”
then I told him out flight date.
The next month
it was Ramadan again. Mamun came to say good bye to me on the roof
he was leaving to spend his Eid with his family. That day
I was so sad
I felt like I lost something very important in my life. We said goodbye to each other
he said he thinks I am such a sweet girl
he hopes I have a great life in Canada. Oh my god
I couldn't hold myself
I think my eyes became watery. I didn't want him to see that I was crying. I said “you too” and tried to smile and left the roof right away.
That was the last day I ever saw my first love. Now 4 years later
here I am in CANADA. I have guy in my life now
whom I am deeply love with after Mamun. I never lose him.
I am ... over Mamun now. Everytime I remember those days
looking at each other on the roof
talking
I feel really down. I wonder where he is now
if we will even meet again... I can never fet my first love.