英语励志美文短篇100字 双语美文：心里的黑暗，我坦然接受你

双语美文：心里的黑暗，我坦然接受你  

I started having this strange feeling of loneliness, self-pity, and sadness in my first year in college.,刚进大学的第一年，我开始莫名的感到孤独，自怜和哀伤。,I had no idea what it was,,当时我并不清楚这种情绪是什么,but one thing I knew was that,我唯一知道的是,it all started when my teacher called me out In front of the whole class,当一位任课老师当着全班同学的面让我滚出教室，这种感觉就出现了,for not carrying out the tasks that were assigned to me.,这件事的起因，只是我没有完成一份她交给我的任务。,I was a brilliant student in school,,在学校里，我是一个很聪明的学生,even though I could be nonchalant sometimes,,虽然有的时候我会有些懒散冷漠,which I felt was monplace amongst kids my age.,但我觉得在我这个年龄的孩子中，这也是很通常的事情, I never took this to heart,我从没将自己的缺点放在心上, until she called me out in front of the whole class.,直到这一天，她当着全班同学的面把我赶出了教室,After that experience, I couldn't listen in class;,经历了这样的事情之后，我发现自己在课堂上无法听课,thoughts of that scenario kept playing in my head,关于那一幕的思绪片段在我的脑海里不断重现,and my grades dropped drastically.,我的成绩下降的很厉害,my friends started avoiding me,,我的朋友们开始避开我,thinking I was acting weird.,他们都觉得我举止怪异, I was.,而我也确实如此,My parents advised me to see a doctor.,父母想让我去看医生, I started imagining weird things.,我开始看到想象中的奇怪事物,One minute I was overly excited,,前一分钟还兴高采烈,while the next minute I was all moody.,下一分钟又郁郁沉沉,At this point, I had been withdrawn from school;,到这个时候，我已经被学校退学了,they felt I might be a danger to other students.,因为校方认为我可能会对其他学生构成人身威胁,Whenever my parents mentioned treatment,,每当我的父母提到接受治疗,I would retort with "nothing is wrong with me.",我就立刻反驳到，“我什么问题都没有”,Until I reached a breaking point,直到我走到了崩溃的临界点, and couldn't go on any longer by myself.,依靠我自己，再也无法支撑自己,I needed help.,我需要帮助, Unfortunately, therapy is costly and definitely out of my budget.,不幸的是，心理治疗的价格非常昂贵，远超我的消费预算,So, I decided to look for alternatives.,于是，我决定寻找其他的解决办法,That was when I stumbled upon online counseling .,就在这个时候，我偶然知道了在线心理咨询的事。,I (hesitantly) applied for a service,,我（十分犹豫的）申请了咨询,and I was assigned to a therapist,我被分配到一个治疗师那里,who started engaging me multiple times a week.,她开始一周数次的和我交谈,I was ultimately diagnosed with "bipolar disorder" as I suspected.,最终我被诊断为“双向障碍”，正如我所意料,"I'll help you manage it.",“我会帮助你恢复健康的”,That was what she said to me.,她是这样对我说的,At first, It was boring and annoying ,,一开始，我觉得治疗过程即无趣又讨厌,but my parents, specifically my mother,,但是我的父母，尤其是我母亲,kept telling me to continue with it, which I did.,一直告诉我要坚持下去，我也照做了,I started noticing significant changes in my behavior.,我发现自己的行为方式有了显著的变化, I could sleep better, eat well, talk amongst people,,我的睡眠质量和食欲都提高了，还可以跟人羣聊天,and do other stuff I couldn't do before.,还可以做之前自己做不到的事情,After a few weeks, I finally felt like myself again,,几个星期之后，我感到曾经的自己终于回来了,due to the help of my online therapist.,这一切，都归功于我的在线咨询师。