美食祈祷与恋爱意大利文化 《美食祈祷和恋爱》Chapter 45 (95):禅修洞

《美食祈祷和恋爱》Chapter 45 (95):禅修洞  

Going into that meditation cave every day is supposed to be this time of divine munion
but I've been walking in there lately flinching the way my dog used to flinch when she walkedinto the vet's office (knowing that no matter how friendly everybody might be acting now
this whole thing was going to end with a sharp poke with a medical instrument). But after my last conversation with Richard from Texas
I'm trying a new approach this morning. I sit down to meditate and I say to my mind
"Listen—I understand you're a little frightened. But I promise
I'm not trying to annihilate you. I'm just trying to give you a place to rest. I love you."
The other day a monk told me
"The resting place of the mind is the heart. The only thing the mind hears all day is clanging bells and noise and argument
and all it wants is quietude. The only place the mind will ever find peace is inside the silence of the heart. That's where you need to go."
我还试了另一种咒语。这句咒语从前是我的吉祥咒语。很简单的两个音节：
Ham-sa.
“宏——撒（Ham-sa）。
In Sanskrit it means "I am That."
梵语的意思是“我是他”。
The Yogis say that Ham-sa is the most natural mantra
the one we are all given by God before birth. It is the sound of our own breath. Ham on the inhale
sa on the exhale. (Ham
by the way
is pronounced softly
openly
like hahhhm
not like the meat you put on a sandwich. And sa rhymes with "Ahhhh . . .") As long as we live
every time we breathe in or out
we are repeating this mantra. I am That. I am divine
I am with God
I am an expression of God
I am not separate
I am not alone
I am not this limited illusion of an individual. I've always found Ham-sa easy and relaxing. Easier to meditate with than Om Namah Shivaya
the—how would you say this—"official" mantra of this Yoga. But I was talking to this monk the other day and he told me to go ahead and use Ham-sa if it helped my meditation. He said
"Meditate on whatever causes a revolution in your mind."
瑜伽士说“宏——撒”是最自然天成的咒语，在我们每个人出生前由神赐予。其音调是我们自己的呼吸。吸气是“宏”，吐气是“撒”。（顺带一提，“宏”的发音柔软、开放，而“撒”与“宏”押同韵。）只要我们活着，我们每回的吸气、吐气都在复诵这句咒语。我是他。我很非凡，我与神同在，我是神的写照，我不疏离，不孤单，不是有限的个人幻象。我向来认为“宏——撒”简单而轻松。比“唵南嘛溼婆耶”更容易在禅坐时诵唸，就像——怎么说呢——瑜伽的 “官方”咒语。但有一天我和僧侣谈起这件事，他跟我说“宏——撒”若有助于我的禅坐，就去用吧。他说：“无论依什么进行禅坐，都能在你心中产生革命性的变化。”
So I'll sit with it here today. Ham-sa.
今天就让我拿它禅坐吧。 宏——撒。
I am That.
我是祂。