悉达多悟到了什么 名著精读:《悉达多》-戈塔马(2)

名著精读:《悉达多》-戈塔马(2)  

Behold
then Govinda
the shy one
also stepped forward and spoke: "I also take my refuge in the exalted one and his teachings
" and he asked to accepted into the munity ofhis disciples and was accepted.
Right afterwards
when the Buddha had retired for the night
Govinda turned to Siddhartha and spoke eagerly: "Siddhartha
it is not my place to scold you. We have both heard theexalted one
be have both perceived the teachings. Govinda has heard the teachings
he has taken refuge in it. But you
my honoured friend
don't you also want to walk the pathof salvation? Would you want to hesitate
do you want to wait any longer?"
Siddhartha awakened as if he had been asleep
when he heard Govinda's words. For a long tome
he looked into Govinda's face. Then he spoke quietly
in a voice without mockery:"Govinda
my friend
now you have taken this step
now you have chosen this path. Always
oh Govinda
you've been my friend
you've always walked one step behind me. Often Ihave thought: Won't Govinda for once also take a step by himself
without me
out of his own soul? Behold
now you've turned into a man and are choosing your path for yourself.I wish that you would go it up to its end
oh my friend
that you shall find salvation!"
Govinda
not pletely understanding it yet
repeated his question in an impatient tone: "Speak up
I beg you
my dear! Tell me
since it could not be any other way
that youalso
my learned friend
will take your refuge with the exalted Buddha!"
Siddhartha placed his hand on Govinda's shoulder: "You failed to hear my good wish for you
oh Govinda. I'm repeating it: I wish that you would go this path up to its end
thatyou shall find salvation!"
In this moment
Govinda realized that his friend had left him
and he started to weep.
"Siddhartha!" he exclaimed lamentingly.
Siddhartha kindly spoke to him: "Don't fet
Govinda
that you are now one of the Samanas of the Buddha! You have renounced your home and your parents
renounced your birthand possessions
renounced your free will
renounced all friendship. This is what the teachings require
this is what the exalted one wants. This is what you wanted foryourself. Tomorrow
oh Govinda
I'll leave you."
For a long time
the friends continued walking in the grove; for a long time
they lay there and found no sleep. And over and over again
Govinda urged his friend
he shouldtell him why he would not want to seek refuge in Gotama's teachings
what fault he would find in these teachings. But Siddhartha turned him away every time and said: "Becontent
Govinda! Very good are the teachings of the exalted one
how could I find a fault in them?"
Very early in the morning
a follower of Buddha
one of his oldest monks
went through the garden and called all those to him who had as novices taken their refuge in theteachings
to dress them up in the yellow robe and to instruct them in the first teachings and duties of their position. Then Govinda broke loose
embraced once again hischildhood friend and left with the novices.
But Siddhartha walked through the grove
lost in thought.
Then he happened to meet Gotama
the exalted one
and when he greeted him with respect and the Buddha's glance was so full of kindness and calm
the young man summoned hiscourage and asked the venerable one for the permission to talk to him. Silently the exalted one nodded his approval.
Quoth Siddhartha: "Yesterday
oh exalted one
I had been privileged to hear your wondrous teachings. Together with my friend
I had e from afar
to hear your teachings. Andnow my friend is going to stay with your people
he has taken his refuge with you. But I will again start on my pilgrimage."
"As you please
" the venerable one spoke politely.
"Too bold is my speech
" Siddhartha continued
"but I do not want to leave the exalted one without having honestly told him my thoughts. Does it please the venerable one tolisten to me for one moment longer?"
Silently
the Buddha nodded his approval.