悉达多讲的什么 名著精读:《悉达多》-船伕(9)

名著精读:《悉达多》-船伕(9)  

Siddhartha said nothing
quietly his eyes looked at hers.
"You have achieved it?" she asked. "You have found peace?"
He smiled and placed his hand on hers.
"I'm seeing it
" she said
"I'm seeing it. I too will find peace."
"You have found it
" Siddhartha spoke in a whisper.
Kamala never stopped looking into his eyes. She thought about her pilgrimage to Gotama
which wanted to take
in order to see the face of the perfected one
to breathe his peace
and she thought that she had now found him in his place
and that it was good
just as good
as if she had seen the other one. She wanted to tell this to him
but the tongue no longer obeyed her will. Without speaking
she looked at him
and he saw the life fading from her eyes. When the final pain filled her eyes and made them grow dim
when the final shiver ran through her limbs
his finger closed her eyelids.
For a long time
he sat and looked at her peacefully dead face. For a long time
he observed her mouth
her old
tired mouth
with those lips
which had bee thin
and he remembered
that he used to
in the spring of his years
pare this mouth with a freshly cracked fig. For a long time
he sat
read in the pale face
in the tired wrinkles
filled himself with this sight
saw his own face lying in the same manner
just as white
just as quenched out
and saw at the same time his face and hers being young
with red lips
with fiery eyes
and the feeling of this both being present and at the same time real
the feeling of eternity
pletely filled every aspect of his being. Deeply he felt
more deeply than ever before
in this hour
the indestructibility of every life
the eternity of every moment.
When he rose
Vasudeva had prepared rice for him. But Siddhartha did not eat. In the stable
where their goat stood
the o old men prepared beds of straw for themselves
and Vasudeva lay himself down to sleep. But Siddhartha went outside and sat this night before the hut
listening to the river
surrounded by the past
touched and encircled by all times of his life at the same time. But occasionally
he rose
stepped to the door of the hut and listened
whether the boy was sleeping.