悉达多悟到了什么 名著精读:《悉达多》-沙门(4)

名著精读:《悉达多》-沙门(4)  

Quoth Siddhartha: "Always
oh Govinda
I had thought
Govinda would stay with the Samanas
always I had believed his goal was to live to be sixty and seventy years of age and to keep on practising those feats and exercises
which are being a Samana. But behold
I had not known Govinda well enough
I knew little of his heart. So now you
my faithful friend
want to take a new path and go there
where the Buddha spreads his teachings."
Quoth Govinda: "You're mocking me. Mock me if you like
Siddhartha! But have you not also developed a desire
an eagerness
to hear these teachings? And have you not at one time said to me
you would not walk the path of the Samanas for much longer?"
At this
Siddhartha laughed in his very own manner
in which his voice assumed a touch of sadness and a touch of mockery
and said: "Well
Govinda
you've spoken well
you've remembered correctly. If you only remembered the other thing as well
you've heard from me
which is that I have grown distrustful and tired against teachings and learning
and that my faith in words
which are brought to us by teachers
is small. But let's do it
my dear
I am willing to listen to these teachings--though in my heart I believe that we've already tasted the best fruit of these teachings."
Quoth Govinda: "Your willingness delights my heart. But tell me
how should this be possible? How should the Gotama's teachings
even before we have heard them
have already revealed their best fruit to us?"
Quoth Siddhartha: "Let us eat this fruit and wait for the rest
oh Govinda! But this fruit
which we already now received thanks to the Gotama
consisted in him calling us away from the Samanas! Whether he has also other and better things to give us
oh friend
let us await with calm hearts."
On this very same day
Siddhartha informed the oldest one of the Samanas of his decision
that he wanted to leave him. He informed the oldest one with all the courtesy and modesty being to a younger one and a student. But the Samana became angry
because the o young men wanted to leave him
and talked loudly and used crude swearwords.
Govinda was startled and became embarrassed. But Siddhartha put his mouth close to Govinda's ear and whispered to him: "Now
I want to show the old man that I've learned something from him."
Positioning himself closely in front of the Samana
with a concentrated soul
he captured the old man's glance with his glances
deprived him of his power
made him mute
took away his free will
subdued him under his own will
manded him
to do silently
whatever he demanded him to do. The old man became mute
his eyes became motionless
his will was paralysed
his arms were hanging down; without power
he had fallen victim to Siddhartha's spell. But Siddhartha's thoughts brought the Samana under their control
he had to carry out
what they manded. And thus
the old man made several bows
performed gestures of blessing
spoke stammeringly a godly wish for a good journey. And the young men returned the bows with thanks
returned the wish
went on their way with salutations.
On the way
Govinda said: "Oh Siddhartha
you have learned more from the Samanas than I knew. It is hard
it is very hard to cast a spell on an old Samana. Truly
if you had stayed there
you would soon have learned to walk on water."
"I do not seek to walk on water
" said Siddhartha. "Let old Samanas be content with such feats!"